There was something about today. I think once you get into a certain "funk" it's hard to get out of it... for me, if I wake up in a bad mood it just spirals until something mood-changing happens (which is rare) or until the next day comes (which often doesn't cut it either).
I don't know what sparks this strange mood, which makes me want to stay under the covers all day and hide away from everybody and everything. Yes, it's all so emo until it's real. And then you end up feeling antisocial and crappy for having wasted so much time. And bad. I mean, do I even have any substantial problems compared to a lot of other people? Everything seems so minor when put into perspective, and yet when I apply my perspective to things this moodiness dominates and impedes upon any chance of happiness and productivity for the day. Maybe it's hormones or something, who knows. I did eat an awful lot of crap, then ended up watching Ugly Betty for a good part of the day.
Why do I have days like these?? I wish I had a time-turner so I could go back just two days and tell myself to stop being such a freak. I guess I'll have to try and make sure it doesn't happen again, but I'm really afraid it will.
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