sometimes i get so weird

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is a great movie. Ironically (or not, I don't really get irony anyways), it took a movie about aging backwards to make me realize how quickly I'm aging forwards.

21 isn't old, obviously, but scarily I'm just not that young anymore. I can't even watch crappy shows like 90210 without thinking that I'm never going to be in high school again. Whatever happened when I was Sweet 16 or whatever, that's it.
(and apparently it's amazing to be young and in love, but I can't fathom what that feels like at all)

Pretty soon, I won't even be a student. And that's so scary, having to take responsibility for things... to run my own life, in a way. I actually discussed this with a couple of friends, and somehow I feel like the only one who appreciates having free time. Sure, it's nice to be doing things at school, but I occupy my time pretty easily at home, too. I read a lot, write some things... There is a world of things to do, and I can't believe that given leisure time, some people would just be "bored."

(quite honestly, I think being perpetually "bored" is just a synonym for "too lazy to find other things to do")

Or maybe I'm just easily amused. After all,

sometimes i get so weird
i even freak myself out

EDIT:

wait a minute, why do all these high school tv shows have like 100000000 episodes that involve big parties at someone's house where everyone is drinking?!?! okay, the drinking age is 21. i think i've been to a party like that a total of once in my entire life (and that was at college, and only for 1 millisecond). sure, people drink in high school, but don't make it seem like it's a major fixture that's representative of every freaking high school in the country. if you do, then the real high schoolers will just aspire to be like the ones they see on TV. geez.

no wonder i didn't think my high school experience "lived up" to what i saw on the WB (or CW, w/e)