Wednesday, December 31, 2008

How Caramel Developed a Taste For Salt



"President-elect Barack Obama has taken to salted caramels, too. He likes to treat himself to a Seattle candy maker’s version, robed in dark chocolate and sprinkled with smoked sea salt."

I love reading "cultural" things in the NYT

... for what it's worth, I've loved Ladurée's caramel à la fleur de sel macarons since last year in Paris.

p.s. Starbucks's Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate is divine.

Monday, December 29, 2008

sometimes i get so weird

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is a great movie. Ironically (or not, I don't really get irony anyways), it took a movie about aging backwards to make me realize how quickly I'm aging forwards.

21 isn't old, obviously, but scarily I'm just not that young anymore. I can't even watch crappy shows like 90210 without thinking that I'm never going to be in high school again. Whatever happened when I was Sweet 16 or whatever, that's it.
(and apparently it's amazing to be young and in love, but I can't fathom what that feels like at all)

Pretty soon, I won't even be a student. And that's so scary, having to take responsibility for things... to run my own life, in a way. I actually discussed this with a couple of friends, and somehow I feel like the only one who appreciates having free time. Sure, it's nice to be doing things at school, but I occupy my time pretty easily at home, too. I read a lot, write some things... There is a world of things to do, and I can't believe that given leisure time, some people would just be "bored."

(quite honestly, I think being perpetually "bored" is just a synonym for "too lazy to find other things to do")

Or maybe I'm just easily amused. After all,

sometimes i get so weird
i even freak myself out


EDIT:

wait a minute, why do all these high school tv shows have like 100000000 episodes that involve big parties at someone's house where everyone is drinking?!?! okay, the drinking age is 21. i think i've been to a party like that a total of once in my entire life (and that was at college, and only for 1 millisecond). sure, people drink in high school, but don't make it seem like it's a major fixture that's representative of every freaking high school in the country. if you do, then the real high schoolers will just aspire to be like the ones they see on TV. geez.

no wonder i didn't think my high school experience "lived up" to what i saw on the WB (or CW, w/e)

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Q: Since when did I get so "emo"?

Let's hear it for America's Suitehearts
I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins

A:

I'm currently in an "emo music" (if we want to use judgmental superficial labels) phase. It's strange; I've liked Fall Out Boy since high school (Sugar, We're Going Down, to be specific) and The Academy Is and Panic At the Disco came to my attention in college, but I've never been majorly obsessed or anything. These days, my playlists consist of little else (besides some holiday music, but even that can be "emo" -- see A Punk Rock Christmas).

Admittedly, it doesn't always feel good to share the same music tastes as high school *fangirls*, but whatever. I went to the TAI concert, and no matter what anybody says, from a muscial point of view their performance was spot-on. Not to mention their intense connection with the audience. The show was so exhilirating, and I will always proudly call myself a devoted fan.

And the new FOB album, Folie à Deux (which basically means f*cking en français, by the way), undeniably shows off their musical prowess. I'm sorry, but there is no way you can contest the fact that Patrick, the lead singer, has an extraordinary voice, no matter your views on the song melodies themselves. Personally, I find the lyrics refreshingly introspective as well.

I guess I'm trying to say that for the moment, this is the type of music I like, and I will never really understand why people say that this is so "typically emo." Because I don't see anything "typical" about these particular bands or songs. Just listen to them; not all of the songs are about being sad and hating life, and if a few of them are, so what? Haven't you ever felt that way before? Maybe you don't need music to help you deal during those times, but don't try to undercut those of us who do.

Besides, I'm sure that eventually, I'll listen to other music. For now, I'm just reveling in the exploration, kind of like when I discovered Asian pop via Jay Chou.

~

these are the trials of our youth

On a different note, I had an interesting conversation yesterday that shed some light into a lot of aspects of gender/sexuality issues I've been going through in my head ever since first year. (for example: why use gender neutral pronouns? I mean, if you are born a girl and want to be a guy, wouldn't you just want to be called "he" instead of some awkwardly constructed ambivalent pronoun? etc.) Some things I won't ever understand on a personal level (yeah, I might have body/self-esteem issues, but I've never felt the urge to identify as anything other than female), but it really felt good to ask questions and have them answered by someone who didn't seem offended or hurt at all, which was my main concern.

If only everybody could be so non-judgmental, on both sides of the spectrum.


these are the fast times

Friday, December 5, 2008

December puts me into a contemplative mood

Saw a production of the play Big Love today. It was beautifully done, and I am glad I could get tickets at the last minute. Basically it's about 50 Greek sisters who run away to Italy in order to escape an ancient marriage contract with their American cousins. Wacky plot, but powerful themes. I liked the way the play presented all of these different perspectives on love and on gender roles (afterwards, a friend remarked that it was "very Smith"); in a way, you agree with at least one thing that each character says, even though they are all so distinct from each other.

At one point, the youngest and most romantically-minded sister steps forth and asks herself, "But why should I settle?" And I'm just reminded of my whole philosophy on love right now. I refuse to settle for something less, even if ultimately my reach exceeds my grasp and I end up alone.

~~

Of course, now I can't get out of this reflective mood, so instead of going to a Winter Weekend party where apparently I could have written my name on Harvard guys' butts (... okay, maybe not my scene regardless), I was a hermit and stayed in with chocolates and tea. ABC family was showing the first HP, so I watched.

The weirdest commercial EVER came on... it was for Marshall's and at the end, literally said "in this crummy economy, you'll find shopportunities at Marshall's" or something as disgusting as that.

This just reminded me of a speech I heard recently where an iBanking executive stated that the financial crisis might be just a wholesaler crisis now, but pretty soon it's going to become a consumer crisis. And then we'll really all start feeling screwed. I guess Marshall's is just anticipating that sentiment...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Why I will always resent Harold Bloom, just a little

I'd like to think I've evolved significantly from my HP-crazy days, where I would rant at anybody who even remotely expressed a dislike of Harry Potter. Especially Harold Bloom, literary critic, Yale professor, author of The Western Canon, and all around intellectual, who wrote an article (see below) about how Harry Potter would end up in trash cans in a few years. Honestly, I think I wrote him hate mail after I found out about that (no worries, no letters were ever sent). I even refused to read any of his literary criticism as a way to, so to speak, stick it to him.

But I've since "matured." In fact, I even bought one of his books on Hamlet (I've never opened it, but still, it's a start). Last night, I was up late reading his 1998 book on Shakespeare, and I discovered I actually like his writing style. This is the first thing I have read by him, and I genuinely liked it, compared with other literary criticism I have had to read. He exudes knowledge without being patronizing, and he has a certain familiarity with Shakespeare's plays that only somebody who is truly obsessed really can. He is, in his own words, an avid practicer of "bardolatry."

He is, in other words (namely, mine), as crazy about Shakespeare as I am about Harry Potter, if not more. So I can't fault him for that.

However, I finally brought myself to re-read his 2000 article on Harry Potter, and even though my blood no longer boils (oh look, Professor Bloom, I used a cliché), I have this sense that he just doesn't get it. By it, I mean the HP phenomenon.

From Can 35 Million Book Buyers Be Wrong? Yes. --

"Can more than 35 million book buyers, and their offspring, be wrong? yes, they have been, and will continue to be for as long as they persevere with Potter."

"
The cultural critics will, soon enough, introduce Harry Potter into their college curriculum, and The New York Times will go on celebrating another confirmation of the dumbing-down it leads and exemplifies."

Wall Street Journal, 7-11-2000

http://wrt-brooke.syr.edu/courses/205.03/bloom.html


There is something fundamental that he is missing about the whole HP phenomenon. I mean, sure, HP is commercial, more so now than ever (see: WB), and it does borrow from earlier fantasy sources like LotR, and J.K. Rowling's writing is not the greatest (though I would argue that the first book, the only one he read, did not represent her at her best), the social frenzy it represented and still represents is a far cry from a "dumbing-down." HP brings people of all generations together, and the enthusiasm with which they discuss it, and the eagerness that they have toward reading in general because of HP, is invaluable.

I just don't understand how Professor Bloom could characterize it so negatively when, for me, and for so many people, HP means so much on a personal and intellectual level. Don't get me wrong, I have no delusions about HP as part of the "new literary canon," whatever that is, but Professor Bloom's implication that, for my generation and those below it, reading HP is worse than not reading at all, is not only incredibly pompous (who is he to say I am stupid based on the books I read), but also incorrect.

EDIT:

From a NY Times blog:

"Earlier this year Newsweek asked Bloom to name an important book he hadn’t read. His weary response: 'I cannot think of a major work I have not ingested.' "

... he may not come across as arrogant in his criticism, but in interviews he apparently feels the need to present himself as such!

As for me, I need to get back to quoting him in a more Shakespearean context -- back to work on this dreaded paper!

(http://papercuts.blogs.nytimes.com/2007/07/11/harold-bloom-at-77/#more-64)

Monday, December 1, 2008

my inability to think

for the first time in a while, i have to write a paper that i have no big ideas for, no sense of direction...

the thing with me is that i can easily write things as long as i know what i'm writing about. this time, though, it's the lack of IDEAS that freaks me out and renders me completely lost.

~~

went to an event today that reminded me that at least i still have a job after graduation. so maybe it doesn't matter after all. but then i why do i still feel so crappy?