happiness and sadness

some people say that true happiness doesn't exist, which is interesting, since nobody i know says the same about sadness. but shouldn't it be parallel, kind of like good and evil / light and dark -- belief in one necessitates belief in the other?

i think happiness is fleeting, whereas sadness is palpable. when i am sad, i can see the tears, or even if i don't cry, i can sense this immense pressure as if i am imploding into myself and all i want to do, all i can do, is disappear for a while in order to re-emerge intact. and in these moments of sadness i actually feel something. even if it is something horrible.

moments of happiness -- true happiness, beyond contentedness -- are so hard to pinpoint and so easily forgotten that i am hard pressed to describe the feeling.

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sure, i could just chalk it up to hormones or a general dissatisfaction with the way things are going right now, but i actually don't think these moments will ever go away.