last week in paris

so much on my mind:

-i ate a disgusting number of chocolate bars. that after my nutella party with myself. ugh if it's not pms i dont know what it is

-got sick over the weekend (perhaps has to do with above)

-still have to finish up this mémoire de stage

-still have to pack like no other

-not that i really want to leave

-no, i really just want vacation instead of this limbo of paperwork and luggage and disaster papers and exams






but last night at the orchestra concert the violist musician smiled at me and it was a little bit okay. *sigh*

Dreams

It's like I'm not sleeping at all because I'm having these troubled dreams.

i'm so annoyed i don't know what to do

my usual "calm down" methods haven't worked on this one...
i've put savage garden's "crash and burn" on repeat for over an hour
i've run two laps around the jardin de luxembourg
i've eaten some chocolate
i've bought a really cute outfit from promod

but i still feel just so irritated. with this class.

all i have to say is that if a fucking theater course brings down my GPA significantly i will NOT stand for it. like, i refuse to get a C in the course. and if it comes to that i am seriously going to faire un scandale.

!!

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off to the catacombs. maybe looking at dead things/people will make me feel better.